I Am My Beloved's and My Beloved is Mine...

Lately I have been thinking a lot in regards to the future. More specifically, about my beloved, the man I will give my life to. I wonder if I know him, or if this love is a mystery that God will bring or reveal to me in time. My heart longs to be in love. It isn't something that I am seeking our or begging God to make happen faster, but I can't deny that I do desire to begin to walk into my love story.

There is one guy who is everything I have ever wanted in a husband, and if our friendship would turn into a marriage I just know that it would be the closest thing to perfect as you could get. He is my best guy friend and I treasure his friendship dearly. I've told him how I feel and right now we are just going to maintain our friendship. He explained to me that if I were to be his wife, God will have to make him to love me in that way, if He wills us to be together. So, maybe or maybe not. If not, I know that God has somebody incredible for him and somebody incredible for me and we will always have a beautiful friendship together. And I am okay with that. I am trusting God that if its meant to be, He will turn both of our hearts towards each other. Right now, we wait.

The Bible says in Song of Solomon 4 different times not to awaken love until its time. We are called to maintain purity in heart, mind and action. The sacrifice of forfeiting temporary pleasure to wait on a love story that will last a lifetime is completely worth it. I am prepared to wait as long as it takes for God to reveal my husband and draw our hearts together. The desire will remain dormant until time comes for me to say "I do." And when I say it, I will mean it with all my heart and my marriage will last until death do us part.

I don't want to force or seek out a love story. I want God to orchestrate every detail. I am dancing with Jesus, my eyes focused on Him, and when He sees fit I know that He will let the perfect man cut in and dance with me for the rest of my life.

I pray that my husband will keep his heart, eyes and body for me alone. That he will guard himself from lust and temptation. That his eyes will be locked on Jesus until our God reveals me to him and him to me.

I am my Beloved's and my Beloved is mine. Right now...my Beloved is Jesus. He will always by my first love. But, later on I will have another beloved and I will be his.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."